Day of Reckoning

If you have been reading this blog you'll notice that one of the constant themes has been my weight. Here a little, there a little. But let me tell you something. There is nothing little about it.

In one of my January posts I mentioned that I had entered a contest at the California Health and Longevity Institute for an grand prize of a 6-month complete health, wellness and fitness program at their state-of-the-art facility valued at $11,000. I had to create a little 5-minute video explaining why I was a good candidate for this program. I was a finalist. And once I got that news, I knew in my heart that I was going to be one of the 8 winners. And guess what?????? I wasn't.

I'm throwing a little pity-party (wanna come?) I will be doing a little licking of wounds. A little bitter resentment dance. A woeful sigh or two. And then? And then...I'm still fat.

And I have freaking had it! I have been significantly overweight for 10 years - since Grace. And my last chance at the fairy dust I was counting on just blew over my head and onto someone else. No paid professional is going to make me do it after all. I am going to have to make myself. So from this day forward, I am going to take matters into my own little hands , fat as they are, and turn my health around. I owe it to myself and my family. And it starts with a big confession:

I am lazy. It's hard. It hurts. And I don't wanna!

There, I said it. I lie on the couch watching "The Biggest Loser" while I munch on crap all night long. And while I'm watching I say to myself: "Valri, for God's sake get off the couch and exercise. Quit grazing through the night." And then I say: "Nah".

I am going to post pictures - gross as they are - to make myself accountable. And I am going to write the details - if not here - then somewhere else. And I am going to be "the fat little engine that could".

I am going to read about nutrition and exercise. I am going to go to the gym. And I am going to walk 10,000 steps a day. I will quit eating after 7:00 - except for carrots or fruit if I need to, and green tea or something like that. I am going to take little breaks during the work day to get up and walk around.

And I am going to start tomorrow. Just kidding. Right now. Who needs the damned contest?

Well, actually I did but it looks like I have to go to "Plan B".